Ok….transparency again this morning. And this one is tough to write. I am NOT proud of this but it is true and real. I started to write a post on anger based on Ephesians 4:26…but I couldn’t write it… Because I’ve had lots of anger. So, this is going to be another transparent post. It is raw…I’m not sugar-coating anything. But it is real. I hope the Lord uses this to help someone.
For the last, probably three years, I have had lots of anger. Anger toward the church, at times, anger toward God, anger toward people, anger towards other Pastors. Why? There were lots of reasons but mainly, I felt like I had been wronged. I felt like no one cared. And I was bitter. Very bitter. At times, consumed with it.
I could hear names and I would really get bitter. For a while, I avoided church. Didn’t want anything to do with it. I believed in God…at times I would stay home and Holli and I would watch a sermon on TV or my phone. I was very bitter.
But slowly… the Lord began to convict me and change me. It took a while…but it slowly changed. I was having lunch with a friend about a month ago and he said something that got me. It was kind of a tough word…but he was right…I needed to move on. I needed to set the bitterness aside and move on. Sometimes, friends have to share tough words.
I’m gradually getting better. Some of the things I was bitter about have not changed and probably never will. But the Lord has helped me see it’s doing me no good to hang onto it.
I’m not going to say I’m over all the things I was bitter about because as sure as I do, Satan will trip me up. But, the Lord is helping me. I am at a point that I don’t cringe as much as I did.
Paul said in Ephesians 4:26-27, “And “don’t sin by letting anger control you.”[a] Don’t let the sun go down while you are still angry, for anger gives a foothold to the devil.”
Paul is acknowledging that we may get angry at times. It does happen. But, Paul says we need to be careful and not let anger control us. He adds that doing so gives a “foothold to the devil.”
I know this – anger does us no good. None. The only person we are hurting is ourselves. And I’m being frank here; the person we are angry with doesn’t give a rip. That’s a fact.
You may be angry with an ex-husband or wife. Maybe you are angry with a person who mis-treated you. Maybe you are angry at a boss who fired you. Maybe you are angry with your Parents for being partial to other siblings. Maybe you are angry at the Republicans or Democrats (I’m not kidding).
If you are angry, give it to the Lord. You do not have enough strength to deal with it on your own. Anger is a powerful emotion. Ask the Lord to give you strength to let go of the anger and move forward in life.