(Another transparent post….)
For the past three plus years of you have followed my posts, you’ve read some of the pilgrimage the Lord has led me through. At times, I’ve felt impressed to be very transparent in my posts. Each time I’ve done it, I’ve bared my soul hoping not to be judged and that has happened. Each time, the Lord has used these to bless someone….So another installment in transparent posts…
I resigned my last church in Feb. ‘16. At the time I never dreamed I would go three years and five months now, without a church. I thought I would get an interim…it hasn’t happened..I thought I would supply preach….I’ve supplied some but not as much as I had thought I would.
Throughout this, I’ve asked the Lord “Why?”
Why no interim?
Why not as much supply preaching as I had anticipated?
And I have not gotten answers. I have some ideas as to why…but nothing certain.
Saturday’s & Sunday’s can be tough…because it’s then I’m confronted with not doing what I’ve done all my life – preaching.
I’ve had people tell me, “But you are preaching through your writing & Facebook live posts – you’re just not in a pulpit. And, they are right and take some comfort in that.
But I’ve asked myself, “What do you do when you pray and you get no response or, you don’t get the response you want?” The only answer I’ve come up with is, you keep believing and you keep praying. That’s essentially what the Psalmist is saying in our text. In Psalm 13, the Psalmist said, “O Lord, how long will you forget me? Forever? How long will you look the other way?” “How long will you forget me?” Have you ever asked that? You feel like the Lord has forgotten you?
But at the end of the Psalm, the Psalmist says, “But I trust in your unfailing love. I will rejoice because you have rescued me.” At the beginning of the Psalm, the Psalmist is questioning God. At the end, he”s trusting God and that’s what we have to do.
It may be that you are going through a time where you would like answers but God seems to be silent. You can even become angry with God. I confess that I have at times. But then I’m reminded of what Habakkuk said, “Though the fig tree should not blossom and there be no fruit on the vine; though the yield of the olive should fail and there be no cattle in the stalls, yet I will exult in Thee O God” (3:17-19).
God has reminded me that even where seems to be no answers, I must trust God. God still loves me and is faithful….even when you can’t seem to hear God.